Is not the desire to die, the desire to live fulfilled?
And is not the desire to live, the desire to die fulfilled?
Is not the desire to die, the desire to live fulfilled?
And is not the desire to live, the desire to die fulfilled?
Hold my hips, tell me you love me,
Let’s lock lips, fill me and glove me.
Break my grip? You’ll have to shove me,
Can’t we strip? It’d be so lovely.
Take a dip, don’t only touch me,
I might slip, ask you to fuck me.
Plant your roots, let’s be like a tree,
While I’m nude, you’re all of my leaves.
Cover me, caress me, get blown in the wind,
Lover please, undress me, or you will have sinned.
Do not tease, just bless me, I want to be pinned,
Lover jeez, you test me, and how can I win?
Touch me, seduct me, I need intoxication,
Clutch me, abduct me, you damn abomination.
Your sickness give me health,
your kisses are my wealth.
Don’t you want no one else?
You have not any stealth.
Be my all, be my none,
Break this wall, you’re the one.
I’d kill for one more taste,
My pill is your embrace.
Fill me with holy grace,
Spill blood to see your face.
On hell I’m fucking bent,
Unwell without your scent.
You transform me from Kent,
Now for glory I’m meant.
Darling I’m on my knees,
Without your warmth I freeze.
You are life,
I’m your wife.
Ease my strife,
Without you, nothing’s right.
Through the night,
You’re my light.
But why’d you have to leave?
I’m still in disbelief.
Criticize her labor, yet relish in its fruits,
We morally shame her, yet it’s us who are brutes.
The storm came, and the storm went,
Didn’t break, but may have bent.
Without a start, there can’t be an end,
Thought I was smart, but you’re not my friend.
A broken heart, I have yet again,
We’re torn apart, because I like men?
The depth of your fear, is unknown to you,
Whispers in your ear, tell you what to do.
Our end’s past near, we’re severed in two,
And let us be clear, though I may feel blue,
That I am sincere, and being too true.
Though I may shed tears, it is time I flew,
Though I hold you dear, I can’t continue.
This upcoming year, I embrace the new,
While I turn my rear, to you (and you) too…
And all that you hear, is far overdue.
Always felt like something is missing.
For something out of reach been wishing.
Who am I? Who am I really?
Find it so hard to navigate these feelings —
Always felt like something is off,
A constant sense of suffering.
Always lost in a fog,
Life feels like it’s buffering.
I can’t take it anymore,
I’m crawling in my skin.
Of the cause I’m unsure,
It’s making my head spin.
I’m alive, but not living —
I survive, but no meaning —
Constant ache, constant turmoil;
I feel fake, milk that’s spoiled —
Could it be? Am I female?
About to leave the belly of the whale?
A nauseating feeling that something is wrong,
I’ve grown so used to it, it’s been so long,
I need to know what is the cause.
Show me the wound, hand me the gauze.
I’m starting to believe I am a transformer.
The male me is dying… call over the coroner.
Oh darling, it’s not fantasy —
Beyond this land I see —
And from the land I’m free —
So come join hands with me —
Choose to understand or flee —
Oh, how I wish to transcend!
With muggles, can no longer blend —
No matter how many owls they send,
Their attitude just will not bend.
I wish to be free, I wish to soar!
Normalcy is such a fucking bore —
I’m meant for something else I’m sure.
I cannot wait one minute more!
This life’s become such a chore…
Meant for more… let me fly away!
Don’t let me wait another day.
Just liberate me, divine I pray.
I’m different, within is a spark,
Difference between us is so stark,
On this quest I must fully embark,
& even if it ain’t a walk in the park,
Lead me out of the dark.
In the waters of Oneness I wade.
My sense of self begins to fade.
In the grave, my ego is laid —
From lead to gold, I am made.
And for the world, I wouldn’t trade.
Everything feels empty and hollow…
In my suffering, can’t help but wallow…
Into the darkness, you can follow,
But be warned… it may swallow.
Man kind.
Damn blind.
The light, it shines too bright.
How much longer can I hold this kite?
If I hold on, I may take flight,
No one here understands my plight.
I’ve seen too much, I need to ground,
To go crazy, I’m feeling bound.
I’m torn between two worlds.
I’ve seen the scroll of life unfurled.
Into the ocean of all, I’ve been hurled,
Back into the womb I wanna be curled…
Wrestling with my shadow.
Good O and bad O
Joy O and sad O
Peace O and mad O
This energy feels so extreme
All I want to do is kick and scream
I’m tearing here at the seam
Carry me away in a light beam
Oh wait… you already have.
Launched from my earthly half,
This rip needs a divine salve.
Its more of an Achilles calve…
I love the moon,
I love the sun.
Love the triune,
Two becoming one.
…
This morning, I heard from a pretty fairy,
Who gave unto me, a moment of clarity.
And she said, though it may sound scary,
That this life, is only temporary.
So go out there, be daring.
Go show some skin. Be caring.
Castaway from a faraway plane.
I seek to return, but all in vain.
To this reality, I am chained.
Memory of home is so faint,
But it’s there, and I am pained.
Innately unstable,
He sees life as fable.
Sanity off table,
Brain needs jumper cables.
Hate this world and everyone in it.
It’s a rigged game. Just can’t win it.
Somethings wrong, but can’t pin it.
Convert sorrows into writing,
Take pain out of hiding.
For truth I am fighting,
In paper I’m confiding.
Now bring the death of the one they knew,
I’ll live life in authentic truth.
Now sever these chains right in two,
I’m ready to be born anew…
Butterfly I’ll transform into.
And my heart aches, my heart burns,
Pain I can’t take, belly turns.
What is at stake? truth I yearn.
I’ll concentrate, try to learn.
Let me die and stop living this lie
Can’t do it no matter how hard I try
It’s an act they everyday buy
Everyone, everyone but I.
Gift of aviation,
Mental liberation.
Higher concentration,
Mental radio station.
To frequencies,
That eyes can’t see.
Why was I born so unique and so strange?
Just being myself they think I’m deranged.
I’m sorry everyone, I can’t change,
I was born to break free from the cage.
I’ve got a brain,
You can’t contain,
Nor can you chain,
Dog you can’t train.